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From: Dom Borax
To: Stacey Marchenkova
Sent: Sunday, May 16th, 1999 11:11 PM
Subject: RE RE RE RE RE RE another drink
Oh Fuck, I’ve screwed it haven’t I? I’m so sorry.
Can I ring you?
----- Original Message -----
From: Stacey Marchenkova
To: Dom borax < mailto:printthisplease@printthis.com >
Sent: Monday, May 17th, 1999 23:52 PM
Subject: RE RE RE RE RE RE RE Another drink
you haven’t screwed it...it’s me…it’s gotten all complicated…
I’m sorry for being all cryptic now…
I think it’s only fair we sit down and talk…clear the air…
I really like you…but something odd has happened…
something I didn’t expect…
and you’re such a nice guy… truly…one of the nicest I’ve ever met…
now I’m raving…
see this is why I try and keep disconnected…it gets all confusing…
I mean I really understand those people that hide behind branded clothing and cool hunting as an excuse to not feel…
all they care about is the conversation of the next big thing…cause the moment we take it all away what’s left?
Just us, I guess…and then pain, fear, tears, loneliness all creep in
And I’m fucking bitch…I’m such a fucking bitch
So sorry
Let’s meet and talk…please
And then maybe not write for a bit…
----- Original Message -----
From: Dom Borax
To: Stacey Marchenkova
Sent: Tuesday, May 18th, 1999 8:32 AM
Subject: RE RE RE RE RE RE RE RE another drink
Okay where do you want to meet?
Somewhere not too bitchy, right?
How about that spiritual bookshop in Edward Street? Perfect place for a Nihilist, right?
And I know it stinks of patchouli oil but maybe we could get irritated over the sleepily aggressive hippies instead of ourselves. I’d prefer that.
I still think you’re excellent by the way – whatever.
Dom
yeah stacey's right!....she is a bitch!....will self knowledge save her?... save them??...guess i will have to wait...
ReplyDeleteps she is still saying for a bit though... cause for hope?!?
ReplyDeleteAnon, self knowledge will save her - for once she's aware she can adapt if need be. I for one can be be lazy and a little sad at times and struggle to challenge it everyday.
ReplyDeleteoahhh.. i've experience this line before.. "it’s me…it’s gotten all complicated…"
ReplyDeleteI have to say Dom is doing a great job of not being phased by it. I'm really glad that Stacey is mature about all of this, and wants to talk this all through. Particularly in person. This will certainly help a lot...
This is a whole lot more diplomatic than my experience, so good on her.
Their relationship hasn't fallen into shadow just yet.. and though Stacey's forecast is overcast, im sure Dom will understand whatever she is going through and brighten her day..
Unfortunately.. some things can't be expressed through text.
All it takes is one smile.
..and suddenly you find yourself piercing through all darkness, looking into her soul; lost in her eyes...
And for those reading these comments, I humbly request that you share this site. Part of me hates asking and I know some of you have already passed it on (signature in gaia - thank you so much)
ReplyDeleteI am so adoring how this community is building, I am excited about it flourishing.
So if I could trouble you to share the page on your facebook wall. Share the fanpage among your facebook friends. Tweet it. Forward the email. Link it on your blog. Tag or use it as a signature in forums or even talk annoyingly and enthusiastically among your peers I would be so appreciative.
I am also happy to respond - telling people about your site. Email me if you have something you'd like me to pass on.
Again sorry for the blatant promotion. I promise to not burden you with this request too often.
HIRANGA?..you related to DOM by any chance???..it is a compliment ...
ReplyDeleteI smile at you Hiranag.
ReplyDeleteI agree that it's wonderful that she was open enough to talk about it face to face. Only problem however, is that we will never have a transcript of the conversation.
ReplyDeleteThe lines "I really like you…but something odd has happened…something I didn’t expect…" really bother me. One possibility is that she has realized that she is so into it (and by it, I mean their relationship) that she doesn't know what to do.
Let's assume that she was honest when she said that she had slept with 3 men before. That notion, in compound with that she's not completely sane with herself leads me to believe that she was so caught up in the moments with him, that she hadn't had time to let her self-conscience set in (aka the paranoia), but after her receiving the gob-love story mail from Dom, something triggered this possible paranoia.
Or it could just be that she has become fond of with Dom's friend as proposed in the previous posting.
-- Jonathan H.
P.S. Stephen Davis, I found that if one clicks and drags the bottom right corner of the textarea, it expands, but once it reaches the bounds of the iframe tag (410px height 100% of container width), scroll bars appear in the iframe, ruining the expandability feature of the textarea.
This just keeps getting better and better!!! I'm addicted... haha can't wait till the next ones! There better be more... or I will rage. lol <3
ReplyDeletehaha nooo... im not related to Dom! :) ..at least i dont think so.
ReplyDeleteMaybe in some parallel universe we are cousins. ..and perhaps the girl i used to know is Stacey's twin :D ..Maybe. :)
-Less emo. More crazy. Probably as confused. Less mature.. But just as beautiful.
...
Actually that last one's a lie. ..she's a lot more beautiful.. :)
PS. back at you Stephen! Back at you. :)
ReplyDeletePPS Anon 2:08. Don't worry, i'll be raging with you if that's the case - purely cos raging is so much fun haha Im sure Stephen will be keen :P
Banners anyone? ;p
OMFG! If she has done it with Marcus, I will simply die. My similar exchange (which ended up being the early stage of a 6 year relationship, in response tto Stephen Davis' question), also included the dreaded "you're a nice guy, but…" kiss-of-death. Desist, Dom! — run! This is your last chance! The true romantics like us can't exist on the same plane as one who refuses to live in the corporeal world, except to satisfy some base, animal urge!
ReplyDeleteif I try to share this on facebook, it posts the first comment, which isn't always going to attract people. how can i share this on facebook and have your blurb up front?
ReplyDeleteAD
Jonathan H, lovely comment as always. Of course I don't want to give anything away. And yes it is annoying that we won't hear what theie coversation is. But something tells me we'll eget a good sense of it.
ReplyDeletePS JH, not quite sure what you mean regarding text area. I am a teensy bit of a luddite. Could it be a blogger template issue. It is limiting.
ReplyDeleteAnon (2:08) There is more - I promise. We're on a good 'up and down journey. And as we get close to the end, I promise I'll give heads up.
ReplyDeleteHiranga, yes please create banners. :)
ReplyDeleteChris D' - you were always a sweetheart. Miss ya.
ReplyDeleteAD, not sure how you share it on facebook with blurb. Again it might be blogger default. Not if sure I can change it. Any solutions? Anyone.
ReplyDeleteMy feeling in the short term is if you're cool - share it, with some personal endrosement in the comment.
We can only hope that she's a secret agent and Marcus is from the opposing organization.
ReplyDeleteOh my word! As I was reading Staceys email it was like a thousand of my own rejections played in my head, every single one. My stomach knotted and I bit my lip a bit too hard and drew blood. But she wants to meet... I can't help but feel I predicted correctly. Its happened all a bit quickly for her, her nihilist life style is threatened. Everything about her lifestyle is being threatened, shes found herself embracing it and forgetting about nihilism. But its come back around to bite her, she has realized whats happened and wants to work it out. I can back this up by her making plans to meet. Earlier emails she would've said "oh I might be there, maybe". Seems a little different to the "Lets meet, I will be there" attitude she has now.
ReplyDeleteI hope this is just a bridge they have to cross, this can't be the end. That'll break my heart.
Stephen: I mentioned your blog in mine, I don't expect any sort of advertising in return, go and check it out if you like. Perhaps it might give you some insight to the 'olives' that read your blog.
I also want to add that I want to thank other 'olives' who might read this comment. You guys/girls have given me a home in this corner of the internet, a sort of community if you like. Its a comforting and warming thought knowing I'm going to see the same names posting their thoughts whenever I check back at the blog. So thank you.
There is an intensity of this relationship that is ever growing. Even though Stacey has obviously scared herself back into her own little world (which she barely managed to peek out of to begin with), I believe in Dom. His strength is clearly linguistics and he has gotten her to come out of her shell once before. I hope he can do it again. If he can't, they both regret not carrying on with their relationship.
ReplyDeleteNot only that but where will all of the amazing commentators on this blog go to express their silly (and beautiful) romantic sides.
(ST)
@Stephen, as I write this comment, I write it in this textbox, which has a few diagonal lines in the bottom right hand corner. If I drag that corner out, expanding the box, it works fine. That is until the textbox's width and height meet the set width and height of the iframe which contain it. If you can't easily edit the source and know what to fix, then don't worry about.
ReplyDelete-- Jonathan H.
If Stacey hadn't been willing to meet to talk about this I would have been the angriest I've been at a fictional character that I have been in a good while. Why don't you make this a book so I can skip to the end Stephen!
ReplyDeleteHeidi
@Heidi, please note that this isn't fiction by any means.
ReplyDelete-- Jonathan H.
Yez Heidi, don't use the 'f' word.
ReplyDeleteStill loving your blog btw
Dux, read you blog. Great stuff. Have linked it below. And equally I am so gratified that this has become a comforting and warming place for commenters. It is safe and if others wanna play you're most welcome.
ReplyDeleteST, thoughtful and profound as always. I agree I have faith in Dom too. And if it helps the ride will continue and those anjoying and engaging with his site will be comfy for a while yet.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jonathan; I'll examine and certainly fail.
ReplyDeleteOops, Andy - missed your message. Yea! I love the fact it could be s spy thing. Stacey wou;ld be a great spy. Dom - not so sure about. I think he'd be caught and spill his guts.
ReplyDeleteI mean I really understand those people that hide behind branded clothing and cool hunting as an excuse to not feel…
ReplyDeleteall they care about is the conversation of the next big thing…cause the moment we take it all away what’s left?
Just us, I guess…and then pain, fear, tears, loneliness all creep in
And I’m fucking bitch…I’m such a fucking bitch
So sorry
Let’s meet and talk…please
And then maybe not write for a bit…
This is gold pure gold especially the last 2 lines
Thank you, Anon. It is gold, I reckon.
ReplyDeleteAm I stacey in a parallel universe??? I remember fucking up an amazing relationship in almost the same way (though over phone calls). My over thinking and over analyzing combined with my overwhelming insecurity gave birth to this insatiable self destruction. -- yes i do love big adjectives ;)
ReplyDeleteOMG OMG Ipshi!!
ReplyDelete- Call me! ;D
OMIGOD!!!!! Somebody pinch me!!! Did THE hiranga just respond to MY comment??? Now I know what preteen girls must feel like in front of Robert Pattinson!! I'm giddy with star struckiness (really dont care if that word exists!!)
ReplyDeleteahem -- gaining normalcy now
@Hiranga - would love to call, msg, txt, mail or in any way get to know someone like you. Have read all of your comments and am (in simple words) a complete devotee. Please do not be scared, am not stalker-like -- though as Dom said once, saying that might make me seem like one
LOL that's hilarious ..Okay.. well firstly im flattered, secondly this is kind of strange.. but okay.. what the hell - why not, and thirdly, im not sure how to do this... soo..im gonna say Google me.. and follow the trail.
ReplyDeletei guess trust your instincts.
..and lets see if you pick up on the scent. :)
PS i have an awesome urban dictionary definition out there - God know where it came from but anyway - im not goign to comment haha It wasn't me! :S
eeeeks @hiranga... im tooo terrified to do this alone ... well nervous actually (why does this blog make you wanna b completely truthful about urself?)
ReplyDeleteplus i already kinda did google you and saw ALL the Hirangas out there and decided i was better off not being nosy... though the aussie FB profile person sounds very interesting; especially since i like almost all the books listed there