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From: Stacey Marchenkova
To: dom borax < mailto:printthisplease@printthis.com >
Sent: Friday, May 14th, 1999 21:11 PM
Subject: Another drink
Here I am…sitting at home again…Friday night…feeling sorry for myself…
Where are my friends…shouldn’t I be out with them…getting drunk...and talking about the television shows we watched as kids:
…do you remember Fraggle Rock? What about Bert and Ernie sharing a bath…? What about The Tomorrow People? I loved that show… what about the commercial with the talking cat warning you about something or other? Or that Christian ad where the glass-eyed boy sang a rhetorical ‘hello’…
You know what I mean…? Surely you do that with friends…
It all starts polite, then people try to impress with their smart-arse knowledge…
then it gets all popular culture…
then gangs split off based on shared smart-arse knowledge…
then a hierarchy builds based on who has the best recall…
then the geeks inherit the earth…
and the rest of us turn mean
Anyway…here I was with my head going a million miles an hour…feeling hollow and your email arrives…I have someone who cares, I think…
Then I get annoyed…
This is the very reason I live and only live in the present because it makes me crazy to worry about what people think of me…
And I cry…I always cry…I hate crying…makes me look like a fucking puffer fish…
I especially hate crying over stupid things like;
Why hasn’t anyone asked me out
See, I like to cry over the small moments. The man eating alone in the restaurant or the smell of a storm coming…or that great pop lyric… or that great piece of urban art… or the child with a red balloon…
This is what I like to cry about, not WHY DON”T PEOPLE LIKE ME!!??
Then I read your email and your invitation in the post script to have another drink makes the world turn again…
It’s a moment…it’s the present (and though I dwell on it now) at the time it fixed everything and reminded me of my life philosophy.
BE IN THE MOMENT!
I thank you for that, Dom, I really do. And in principle, let’s have another drink…perhaps we can bump into each other accidentally at my local (The Norman) tomorrow night. I'm usually (if the moment takes me) wolf down a steak around 7:00ish.
s
ps Okay so you want to know what my ambitions are…? Well to be honest I try not to have any because it contradicts my life philosophy…but I am human…and I have…in moments of weakness…thought it would be amazing to be a musician/songwriter… (I play the piano a little and the ukulele a lot)
pps and you also want to know what I do for work...I work in a bar in the Valley…drunk people are so funny…
ppps and yes I want the last word... so Dog Suggestion name #14: Sir Pantsalot (I wanted to say Kennel Everett – but thought that was too lame as the last word)
